So I've had notice of finance, and an official letter that says I have definately got an unconditional place on the course.
I had a bit of a set back last week when I found out that once I have been in post for 4 years or more then apparently it's law that they have to make a permanent full time employee, so this changes everything. Do I still leave work to go back to Uni or do I stay in post?
I've always said that I wanted to go back to Uni, and arty crafty stuff is my thing, but I would be giving up a good job with good money to go there. If I go back to Uni I will have all my funding, so that wouldn't be an issue, but I would still need to find a job that has me earning £6k for me to break even on what I take home now - is that even possible? I don't even know what part time jobs are like? Do students do anything but bar work?
I'm scared that I am going to put a big strain on my relationship with DH, because of the lack of money. We have only just managed to get on our feet with the house, so would I be putting it all in jeopardy just to satisfy my job urges?
One thing is for sure and that is I don't want to get another administrative job. I have been there, done that and have the notepads to prove it. I've got the qualifications, so short of doing a degree in some kind of administrative services ( DO.NOT.WANT.) there isn't much more that I can do.
I have the full support of my family and DH, which is more than what some people have. I also have some fab friends who are cheering me on, but still am I doing the right thing going back.
In my heart of hearts I know it is what I want to do and speaking to others who have been in the same situation I am going to be in a constant cycle of these thoughts for some time yet, but I am told that once I get to do jelly shots the meaning will all be clear!
So after pondering and going around in circles for a while I've decided that I can make this work. I can always get some kind of job, and if nothing else I've still got Whimsies to work on.
The up and down of it is after a minor detour I'm back on track and excited to be there, so if you are around me and hear me uhming and ahing over going, just set me back on the track - 48 days and I will officially be a student.
YAY! Another mature student is going to hit the quad. (Tread the quad?) We (mature students, m.s.) will take over the world soon.
ReplyDeleteI am a former m.s. having done the ordinary route (uni straight from high school), then I lived in London for over five years, went back to Canada and started another degree as a mature student.
Is there a mature student "club" (or whatever it might be called) at your institution of higher learning? It is a great, great help and support - and will take some of the weight of having to provide all your needed support off your dh.
And there comes a point where he does not/cannot know what you are going through - because he is not in the same situation. Fellow students will understand to the nth degree.
Other mature students may be able to suggest an appropriate course load. You have responsibilities which require a time commitment that a straight from A-levels person does not have. You need time to spend with your dh - most of the young'uns will not have a dh yet. You need to have time to work - they may have their parent's purse strings to rely on instead.
On the plus side: you have time management skills the young'uns have not learned yet.
All the best,
Janey